Monday, February 22, 2010

Parental Control

I wish I could make my own decisions for once. In this short bout of freedom, so help me God, I want to freaking milk it for all it's worth. A split second sandwiched between years of studying, working, running the human race. Is it so much to ask?

I wish my identity was established as Rebecca; Girl; Individual. No ties, no "Daughter" nor "Student", or definition through any other. Just for that one moment, I want things to let me go. But then again, things don't always go the way you want them to. And I have to watch bitterly as this plays out before me, and my unhappiness is enough to swallow my brief pretence of this thing I believe is freedom.

I know it's always about "They love you"s and "They care", but caring less would work. Call me heartless, go on. But I'm really sick of it. It's some oppressive shit and I want out.

Anywho, today I met up with the two goons again. So much for studying. I hope Rui got some things done. Anyways tomorrow Drey and I will be working together at Singapore Pools, packing angpaos and such, so she'll be free from distractions for a while to get some studying done, hopefully! We fooled around with the webcam and sang to a lot of stupid old songs. HAHA heaps fun. Rui uploaded one on youtube, but I'm so glad that she didn't put up the more unglam ones. HEEHEE.

xoxo
Bex

Posted by Rebecca @ 11:08 PM