Saturday, April 14, 2012

I BATHED THIS MORNING.

Yesterday was a good day! Got my matric card replaced like in 2 days. Here I was worried that I wouldn't get it before my Finance exams. Oh and I was worried about something else, or should I say, WE were worried. But it's fine now. :D $600 saved!!!

I'm getting faaaat. D: But now I have more excuses to keep eating than excuses to not. So I'll just wait til my internship then starve in the office. Hohoho I'm outsmarting life. :D I CAN'T WAIT TIL EXAMS ARE OVER. Then I'll be able to chill, sleep, and do (expensive) Snoopy jigsaw puzzles! But that also means that Nate will be leaving for holiday. DDDD: I didn't even get my chance to make scallops and peas! Nooooo.
MUST go to Smoochiezzz sales/store whichever is first. I'm gna go mad after exams. Got my eye on some brushes and powders.

I HAVE NO MOTIVATION TO BLOG WHY AM I DOING THIS AT THE MOST UNINTERESTING POINT OF MY LIFE BAI.

XOXO
BEX

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Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Valentine's Day 2012!

I think this is officially the best Valentine's Day I've ever had. (((((: We enjoyed our day together and some time apart as well (for last minute assembly of gifts), had a fun time at Nate's first salsa class and had a great dinner of crepes, both savoury and sweet. A special day doesn't have to have fireworks, singing telegrams or the whole kit and caboodle to be one of the greatest days of your life. Perhaps it's because when you find that special someone, every day's amazing.

Today I went to school with dad to turn in my MS homework, ended up reading stuff online until 9 then realised I left my original homework at home so I had to redo the thing all over again. -.- Went up to submit it in the dropbox and got back down to fellowship shortly after. Good to see Dawn again after so long! We've established our positions as two of the few slackers in the smu community who don't really care if we're not doing fabulously. We read in Ecclesiates today that toiling and slaving away for something you can't take with you when you die is totally futile, a pursuit of the wind, and thankfully we're not that kinda people. The fact that we're actually secretly lazy really doesn't matter, of course. :DDDDD

After that, I hurried to Raffles City mall to get Royce chocolates for Nate. I got the original chips cause I was always under the impression people bought white more. Small sample? Maybe. I care? Not really. HAHA. So after that, I went to draw money and passed by Jco. AND SUCCUMBED TO TEMPTATION GRRR. Bought a glazed doughnut and two more for Nate and Colin. SIIIIIIGH I see my father in me. :/ At least they were happy. (:

Went up to finance and managed to pay attention for the first half of the lesson (typical), and we ended early! But I had to wait for Nate in the end. :/ After he finally came, he presented me with a GORGEOUS rose. It was dusty baby purple/pink and SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL. Later on he explained that was why he was late - he went to collect it. We swapped gifts and that darling got me VENCHI CHOCOLATES which I was eying when we went to Taka and a WOODSTOCK TEE. This boy, this boy right here, knows my inner heart's desire. With me in a happy happy mood, we went for a shared late lunch cause we didn't wna spoil our dinner, and ate at the basement of pomo at a shop that's not bad in the spaghetti department, though the ngoh hiang-tasting meatballs were disturbing for me. Nate ate my share. :D

Recrea class next! Nate was so cute doing the basic step; it's like two things I love coming together. (: And I can't wait to dance with him again! We wandered aimlessly off to Orchard Road after, and found ourselves at Centerpoint's TCC, where we spent a good hour there. I read his V Day card and it made me cry. (': After laughing, crying, goofy phototaking, we went to take the bus back to where we came from(!) to Seah Street where we had dinner at this French crepe place. I forgot the name, but pics will prolly come up somewhere on fb if I remember.

What I really liked was that when we got seated at the table which had CUTECUTECUTE heart stickers on it to mark the occasion, systematically, staff approached us bearing special surprises. A lit tealight candle, swapped out salt and pepper shakers for ones with a heart stuck on it, THE MOOD WAS SERIOUSLY SWEET. Really, kudos to the staff for their innovative, cute and romantic creativity. The creamed spinach in the crepe with smoked salman was so different and tasty, but it has the propensity to become cloying and overwhelming. I also got smoked salmon with chives, lemon and sour(?) cream. It was gooood. BUT NOTHING CAN BEAT THE DESSERT CREPE. Not that I have anything against savouries, but I always felt crepe were for sweets. And the savoury crepes were buckwheat, which, whilst healthier, didn't quite satisfy. We had the caramel sauce-covered apple crepe with vanilla ice cream. The ice cream was so cute - you could see the vanilla bean flecks in it. Satisfied, we left and went home after a short walk around Raffles City mall.

All in all, I had a super time, and this is a day I'd most likely never forget - the first Valentine's Day ever to be memorable. I love you, Nate, if you're reading this. (: That's all I need to say.

On a related but different note,

I asked to see my sister's gifts, and they were multitudinous!!! They were all so personalised with letters and special gifts referring to habits and quirks of my sister's life, and I felt a twinge of sadness and nostalgia as I remembered my secondary and JC days. Now in uni, hardly anyone does that already. Mainly because for one person who belongs to a group of friends, there's another who doesn't. University is like that, because it's so modular, people hardly get the chance to bond. Except in CCAs or camp-forged friendships before school starts, we rarely make new and close friendships once in uni. It was a very hard period of transition for me when I moved to uni. I struggled to cope with the sudden loneliness of not having familiar faces I could feel close to and love as well as loved by everyday. I need people, terribly, and I felt so alone in the earlier part of uni. But I got used to it, and have a few close friends who I see occasionally, and I have Nate. We just have to get used to our situation, because things are different now, and they will be in the future. I'm just grateful for the friendships from the past that have survived until now, as well as the new ones I've made in uni that are going strong until now. And I'm also grateful for someone who loves me and I, him. I'm glad I can see him almost everyday; he's practically my world. I rely a lot on him, and I can see how it might be dangerous to put all your trust and love in one person, but I'm beyond that now. I trust Nate with all my heart, and I love him unconditionally. I don't have to worry about spreading my heart out amongst many people in case a big investment in one person fails - Nate is worth investing my whole heart in, and I know that will hold forever.

xoxo
Bex

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Monday, February 13, 2012

Blogging in corp comm class! Am now listening to a very entertaining story about how an air steward quit his job. Apparently he cursed over the intercom, grabbed a bottle of bubble, opened the emergency exit (the plane had landed, fyi) and slid down the inflatable slide! HAHAHAHAHA. It's pretttttttyyyy cool cause he went out in style.

TOMORROW'S VALENTINES DAY. And I haven't prepared the present! :O

It's a mad period now. Managing internship applications (and a dilemma, too), having mid-terms this week and homework! GRRRRR.

ANd one more thing: I HATE MS. RAWRRRRRR AOINSDOIGNA;SLDKNSRNOUIV. Headache!

Hopefully I'll have something nice to blog about tomorrow. :DDDDDD

xoxo
Bex

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Monday, January 9, 2012

Exactly 1 month

It's now the new year. :D Lots has happened, I won't even attempt to talk about it, other than a brief overview. Gosh why do I always find myself doing this? I'M BLOGGING FOR ONE PERSON HAHAHAHA. Anyways I don't do it cause I already have someone to tell everything to. //looks meaningfully at you

Anyways I've been to Beijing, come back, will never go again, celebrated Christmas with Nate's family (a first), spent new year's eve going on to new year with Nate and friends (also a first) and started school.

My FCC prof is great, and so is my SP prof. Things are looking promising! I just hope that tomorrow's finance class won't totally spoil my semester so far. D: I wish I had a semester of good profs!

On a side note, I've become really fat. D: And there's a full dress rehearsal for SMUSF tomorrow! ARGHHHH. //dies Though I did my 8 min ab workout today. Does that warrant ramyun later? Hee, we shall see.

Gluttonously yours,

xoxo
Bex

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Friday, December 9, 2011

Calvin and Hobbes

I just realized that Calvin from Calvin and Hobbes leads a super dysfunctional life cause he's an only child who's got a stuffed tiger for a make believe friend; no other real friends or interaction with kids his own age save Suzie who he always fights with, and
Moe who bullies him; a family and school that doesn't understand him and his learning needs. His vivid imagination and wide vocabulary shows potential for artistic talent but no one ever recognises that part of him. Man... If he was my kid I'd be suffering but I'll also try to look out for him in ways his parents never do.

Edit: His father consistently lies to him about the universe and the things around them and how they work, and both him and his wife never play with Calvin. Plus, they don't ensure he's safe til it's too late. I mean, all that plummeting off slopes and flying through midair.
That's damn dangerous.

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Monday, November 28, 2011

Even though sometimes my anger is justified

I think I take it too far.

I'm quite ashamed of my actions and behavior. And I really don't know how anyone can stand for it.

The way I treat people sometimes is just... I don't really deserve anything.

I don't know how to change either. How to abandon all these undesirable qualities that haunt me and cause grief to people around me and to myself.

God I hate myself.

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Monday, October 31, 2011

WHY AM I BLOGGING

DURING MA. ARGH like I'm not failing already. D:

Sidenote: I've got so many permutations of my password I have to try again at least once everytime I log into anything cause I get it wrong the first time.

THIS WEEK IS SO HECTICCC. And I'm blogging. -.- I better not forget to do my psych reflection tomorrow. :O

STRESSUMS. I should start on indiv assignments earlier. D: BUT I'M JUST SO LAZY. RAWR. At least I've managed to balance crazy work time with down time this week. :D Hee. And yes, I have my priorities right. (:



xoxo
Bex

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Tuesday, October 25, 2011

DYING.

Schoolwork is overwhelming me! Or maybe rather the thought of schoolwork I'll inevitably have to deal with soon. D: Sigh typicallll.

Attended korkor Daniel's wedding dinner on Sunday night! It was at Fullerton. Brings back Butter Fac memories. :D The food was pretty good, individual plate style. And I totally loved the concept of the wedding, even though I didn't actually attend. But I saw pictures and videos, and korkor Daniel had this whole Marvel/DC Superman theme around his photoshoot and concept. It was SOOOOO cool. Makes me wna have a fabulous wedding. :D Hear that Nate?!

Anyways I slept at 4.45 after a late night discussion with Nate, then met him at like 9.45 this morning. I was like dying when I woke up and basically suffered trying to pretend I was awake and alert in front of dad. But when I reached school at 8, the facade came crumbling down and I slept on my laptop case at the SOE benches for one and a half hours. HAHA.

Went for a random walk when Natey Watey came and hunted high and low for famous amos cookies to fulfill a craving. THEY'RE AWESOME SHITXZ LIKE ALWAYS.

Anyways I'm like trying not to collapse and die in psych class. I can only think about the sleep I'll be able to enjoy when I get home. ARGH GIVE ME BED NAO.

xoxo
Bex

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Monday, October 10, 2011

Love

So thoroughly powerful
A tugging, a filling
To overwhelm and
Threaten to swallow
Every part of me

I should be afraid but
Yet I'm compelled
To surrender to the
Push-pull of the waves
That take me out

So far out
Into the blue

I love you.

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Sunday, October 9, 2011

Bad Dreams

Are made of NOTHING. I think the important thing to remember is that when you wake up, it's not real. When you wake up, you get back to reality, and whatever you've been dreaming will vanish. Whether good or bad. We may feel a twinge of regret if we've been dreaming about something amazing, or relief, if the dream wasn't as wonderful as we'd all like them to be.

The last thing I'd like is for my rest time to be spoilt with bad dreams! Eurgh! On a side note, the boy is the most wonderful being in the worlddddd cause he didn't laugh at me when I told him about my dream. PLUS, not only did he NOT laugh at me, he actually reassured me. Even though it was ONLY a dream. RAWR HOW IS IT THAT YOU UNDERSTAND ME SO WELL NATE. Sighhh. <3

ANYWAYS.

STUDYING FOR MA TEST TOMORROW. Sigh. My productivity is starting to waver. D: I'M SLEEPING LATE TONIGHT AND WAKING UP EARLY TOMORROW. MURRRR. And I don't care if it means I have to eat to stay awake. And NO, that's not just an excuse to make myself a totally yummyyyy grilled cheese. :DDDDDDDDDDD

BALEHBABOO.

xoxo
Bex

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