Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Remembering last year

And suddenly I remember how 1A05 08 was like last year. When we actually had more time, but didn't seem like it cause of PW.

Especially towards the end of the year, where PW practically ruled our lives, we would inevitably find people in the Computer Room in the Library every break. Usually those people would be Aleem, Fatin and Ratna (oh I miss her). The rushing to meet deadlines, the bloody exceding of word count every freaking time! The disagreements within the groups, the phone calls, surveys, interviews OH THE RUSH. XD

Suddenly I remember your smell. OKAY RANDOM.

So PW was a lot of laughter, and tears. Laughter, at YOU KNOW WHO (SPOS), and tears, on SPOS' part. Cause I'd usually make her cry. Tsk, what a baby. HAHAHAHAHA. OMG so mean. No not really. OKAY SHATTAP. XD

I remember we attempted to record lit lectures for this point of time, trying to save the massive scribbling for further revision, subsequently not touching the words which looked like some coded hieroglyphs. HAHA. PHAIL. XD

Good times, good times. Post-it drawing, insulting (still happening), old friends and PW. That was pretty much 2008 for me. Gawd I miss it. But if we were to wish for crystallisation, there won't be anymore to miss in the future. See if ya'll get that.

I loved you, 1A05 '08, and always will. <3

xoxo
Bex

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After cny

So CNY was a blast (read: prolly the weirdest CNY ever). Not that it's weird, apart from seeing my ex. HAHAHA. And since it's the poor year, I got poor angpaos. XD

Today was a pretty fun day. Apart from sleep-a-thon lessons, I had a good time. I swear it's the friends. XD Haniel's singing is SO funny, ALWAYS. And Edward and I got into a pen swordfight and prolly insulted Josh Groban for life! HAHAHAHA. And I realised Xing's a really sweet girl. Not really realised, cause she can be sweet when she wants to, but today I got full force of it. XD Thanks Xing, wo ai ni! <3

During dance, I totally malued myself. HAHAHAHA pfft, the girls are so silly. But if they knew... Naww nevermind. HAHA. The hardest part of the day when it comes will be adapting. Anyways, Mr Dan loves to be psycho. But then again, that's a well known fact. XD I bet he can fit his whole foot into his big mouth. HAHAHAHAHA.

Then after dance hung with Josh for a while in the gallery. Whilst he was supporting Bala, who IS a sweet thing, I had a few unsavoury things to say about our soccer team. Shall not mention it here, or who knows will come after me. HAHAHAHA. So we played a little guitar, I sang along to Tears Don't Fall, the first song he let me listen one Thanksgiving night when I was freaking sad. XD And I semi-composed a new song. I also lost the top part of my barbell (genius) cause I dropped it and it rolled away, but Josh found it for me. Can't believe he dared to touch the thing. HAHAHA. Much less that he seemed so nonchalant about it. Hahahahaha. Then went home. Dad keeps sending me home, wish I didn't have to deal with him so often. Not that anything happened luh, but his presence gets on my nerves. HAHAHA OKAY MEAN. But yeaaaah. XD

Been pretty bummed out these few days, even though situations are "better" now. Hey, can you blame me? A girl has never really been good at sharing.

xoxo
Bex

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Monday, January 26, 2009

And then suddenly it's okay

And then suddenly it's okay. XD
My mood feels so much lighter, I feel a lot better than I have for the past few days. When I swam through the sluggishly thick murky world obscured by my tears. HAHA okay getting into emo. XD

But now it's okay. Things have never been more okay. Even though they can't be the best, they're the best they can be, not entirely without the pain of loss in time to come, but the obligatory bittersweet finalisation even as things stay almost the same, and the promise of new beginnings. Just like someone I love says:

"Best choice out of no choice."

<3
xoxo
Bex

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Happening...

Shit's been happening the past few days.
That means I feel like shit.
Chyeaah.
It's all in my poems.
But I don't think most of you will get it.
I hid it well.

xoxo
Bex

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Sunday, January 25, 2009

I Loved You

I
Quantities of pain don't come in small doses
They wash over you like a tidal wave
Of knives just like in Little Mermaid
Only that there is no happy ending

II
Rock-a-bye Baby, under the tree top
When the wind blows, the cradle will rock
And when the tree bough is sick of it's ward
Down will come Baby, in tortured dischord

If purgatory's better than hell
Then not to choose, I wish you well
Just remember, both's got the smell
Of death waiting, for your soul to sell

III
Because more often than not
The alternative isn't that much
Better than you make it out to be.
Because it looks as attractive as
An escape route in a smoke house
Is to a pig, squealing for life
In manure and filth, not in fire.
Useless in other uneventful circumstance
But especially appealing when it's cooking time

xoxo
Bex

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Saturday, January 24, 2009

Love is...

Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting him/her not to. - John Albert Halili

There cannot be love without suffering in one form or another. - Ema Hathaway

If you don't risk everything, you risk even more.

xoxo
Bex

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CNY

So yesterday's performances were not bad. Hahahahaha. Cept for the bloody stage at LinKuang home. Eeee. Never gonna change.

OMG got lit project due on wednesday. FAINT. Got something due, the reflection thingy. But I'm gna do it at night.

EEE I hate multi-tasking. Darling got his tongue pierced yesterday! SO COOL. Reallyreally awesome lor! But he's not that amped up about it. DX Dno why luh. Then he went to send off his teacher who's leaving for Jakarta for 4 days.

Kay so I'm not gna eat a lot from now on, cause I'm sick of people calling me phat. XD Haniel's the only one who compliments me. But I don't get other reassurances, and I think he's biased anyways. XD So don't scold me or what, cause it's a choice I'm gna make. Maybe it's a resolution, a CHINESE NEW YEAR resolution, seeing that it's too late for a New Year's one. XD OH and to improve on my dance technique and flexibility. WOOHOO.

I've haven't been too happy recently. DX

xoxo
Bex

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Friday, January 23, 2009

My Own Mind Scares Me

My own mind scares me
It forces me to face
The tendriled monsters of suspicion
Lurking in every corner

"Can monsters hurt you anyway,
If you don't believe in them?"
Or maybe they were there all along
You were just foolishly blind

Ignorance is bliss,
But only blissful for those
Creatures which come out
To devour you in your slumber

My own mind scares me
It forces me to plant
And think the worst of
The monsters under my bed
And cower in the middle of my island

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Wednesday, January 21, 2009

CNY

So most of you know I've had this really bad stiff neck for the past few DAYS now, though I haven't blogged about it, and it's lasting abnormally long. Maybe cause I don't have enough rest blawblawblaw. But it's been physically mentally and emotionally straining for me the past few days cause of the frustration of not being able to move freely. It's like I'm caged and restricted and it's torturous. But dance helped me feel a lot better today. And my neck condition's improving. XD

Met my darling this morning. I was like a parasite. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Partially because I just didn't wna go to school. When you find my clingyness annoying darling, please feel free to complain. XD

Today was like, gawd. I cnt stand Edward. Cause now in class I'm sitting with him almost all the time cause we only ever go to A2-5 and math. XD Then it's like lame jokes and cold CRAP every minute. CNT TAKE IT. And I think I'm becoming like him. Today was like THE ULTIMATE. I really wanted to dai. EDWARD UH, WHYYY!!!

SO I'M IN THE CNY PERFORMANCE! As a replacement but nevermind. XD I'm happy anyways. And Rachelle and Grace were so sweet to me about my dancing. XD Then after, we're gna go to LK home to perform. On that platform they call a stage. HAHAHA. I wonder if the shui xiu will whack the old people in the face, and if the fans will give them a heart attack. Should be interesting. XD

So during dance, I got to use a fan for like the first time in the longest time. Hahaha, it felt awesome. Then after that Josh with Edwin walked me and Ellen home. It was a pretty strange group. XD Originally supposed to be me and him only, but I roped Ellen and Edwin in. Edwin for irrelevant purposes, Ellen, well, cause DUH. XD We had a bunch of laughs. XD Apparently I'm anti-climatic. Whaaat, I find ants fascinating. XD

So I'm pretty pooped, and now I'm gna go do my homework. GAWD. I think I only have one GP essay to complete. I THINK. O.O DON'T LIKE HOMEWORK.

xoxo
Bex

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Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Stuff

I need to force myself to make a list of what I have to do, or it'll remain a mess of fuzzy assignments and commitments floating around in my River Of Consciousness until I actually realise the deadline is the day after my realisation. And what way is more fun than BLOGGING ABOUT IT! O.o

STUFF
GP essay by thursday
Finish geog holiday essays [holiday homework]
Copy econs essay outline (aspire) and do the drq [also holiday homework]
Read P&P (watching the movie DOES NOT COUNT) and do chapter summaries asap
Read geog lecture book before the next lecture and highlight
Read econs lecture book, highlight before next lecture and try to make sense of it all
GP AQ by like goodness knows when

Practice Always By My Baby and Collide
Think about the Cell Block Tango

GAWD I AM SWAMPED! DX No wonder I didn't wna think about it. Bah, I'm off to pretend I'm gna do those things! XD

xoxo
Bex

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Monday, January 19, 2009

Stiff neck!

So, some not so pleasant stuff happened yesterday, but it's all resolved now, so it's all good. XD

Today I woke up in AGONY. I had this stiff neck, and when I was semi-awake I turned my head and thought I had a splitting headache. Cause the pain was in the back of my neck, quite close to my head. Then I spend 10 minutes getting out of bed, thank goodness I woke up earlier. I sprayed air Salon Pas which helped a little and went to tell my parents. My dad looked pissed off cause recently he's gotten like that, so I went away to wait for mum to get out of the bathroom. I came back and got my neck massaged a little with oil. I love you mum. <3 At least you show you care, unlike your other bloated half sitting around scratching himself. Gawd, I feel my detestment seeping out of my fingers in to my words. I SHALL LEAVE IT HERE. Before things get too carried away.

Basically, my the whole day was spent in agony, cause I couldn't turn my head. And I was feeling a little emotional cause of what happened this morning and such so I was kinda shitty feeling in the morning. Got better though. After assembly, I met Josh cause he had to pass me his guitar which I was borrowing for lit week to play for Haniel. Gave it back during the day cause it was too cumbersome. XD Goodness I've missed the lad, haven't seen him in eons. We both got caught by Mrs Phay, the militist. O.o Then he remembered I was griping about the cold in lecture theatres and lent me his jacket! Thoughtfulthoughtfulthoughtful! Faaaanks. XD

PE was like EEEEEEEEE. I couldn't do inclined pull ups cause of my head, but Bernard Tan still pushed us through like a million abs exercises. O.o Then after that was lit rehearsals, and my fingers kinda hurt now. DX I found out that Syafiq's a pretty good composer and not a bad singer, if you like that low soulful tone. Cause I do! XD And Alvin and his friend sing so well. Her voice is amazing when she was singing Torn by Natalie Imbruglia, and Alvin's one was fab when they did this duet by James Morrison and Nelly Furtado. I swear, he sounds exactly like Morrison. Did I mention I think James Morrison sings divinely? And they harmonise GORGEOUSLY. I tell you, I can't stop raving about those two! I'm so jealous, I wish I could sing as nicely. DX

I missed my baby today, but he's coming to find me on wednesday. YEY! He showed appropriate sympathy towards my stiff neck when almost everyone laughed when I told them! DX And he was constantly caring and so sweet, as he is always. Goodness, I love that about my darling, I'm really lucky. <3 I can't wait to see him on wednesday, to hug him, stick my face in his shirt and breathe in and stuff like that. XD It's just those silly things that I love to do cause it's him. HEEHEEHEE. Don't laugh at me and how I'm love struck ya'll, I can practically hear Kim and Xing's laughter. XD So anyways, ILU darling. Chewy! <3

xoxo
Bex

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Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Disappointment in dance

So the porridge turned into meesua, on my request. Hahahaha. He's so lovely.

Our class experienced Ms Tammy Thiang for the first time today. SHE'S SO AWESOME AND ADORABLE. Hahahahaha. She'll like suddenly deviate and laugh her really RANDOM laugh. And talking about nonya kueh (Little Nonya - Idenity BLAWBLAWBLAW) and kueh lapis. Hahahahaha, how random. XD She's so cute. XD

I wanted to eat spaghetti for break, but it wasn't ready, so I said I'd come back for it by lunch. James was so nice, she helped me carry it to the canteen, although she was like super nonchalant that she was holding a full plate of FOOD in her hand! Carrying it like a frisbee like that. XD So nice of her to carry right, especially since she keeps complaining about "unglam", "malu" all this. XD HAHAHA.

I dragged my brain through the rest of the school day. Today's the most arduous, I tell you. ALL THE SUBJECTS WE TAKE ARE CRAMMED INTO TODAY. GRRR. RAWRRRRRRRRRR. Then there was dance. I tell you, this year's been a disappointment, dance-wise, so far. DX And no, I'm not gna tell you why. My dignity's based on the first, and well, just fun based on the second. The first disappointment's more of a huge blow. It was freaking life changing. And NO, I'm not telling. Cause if you find out, you'll be all "CHEYYY that's it??" Well, it's really important to me, so yer...

Eve and Rach and goodness knows who are meeting darling tomorrow. I hope they'll like him. Oh gosh, how not to. XD He's so cute. My bearbear. <3

xoxo
Bex

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Monday, January 12, 2009

First day of school

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL

My DARLING darling (HAHAHA) walked me to school, no kidding. Went in all the way to fetch me and such. We met at the crossroads of my house when I was walking straight, then he just came out of Simon Road. HAHA. I tell you, FATE luh. XD Then went to the coffeeshop behind the school to eat. I got forced to eat TWO eggs! Second one then just nice, but stupid luh, a bit full already. Then he hugged me outside school can! AHH PS. Hahahaha. And there was a talk about public displays of affection in uniform today. HAHAHA.

THE GIGGLING FOOL. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Okay random. XD

Then it was all talks and shit like that, and blawblawblaw. After school, went to Fon's house to play Rock Band, the drums. Fun luh. Then OMG. I realised I had like 10 missed calls from this number, and apparently I LOST MY WALLET. IT DROPPED AT THE TRAFFIC LIGHT NEAR FON'S HOUSE. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. WTFFF. So I went to claim it, bought some food and went back. We talked and talked and talked, felt like the old days. Then I went to sleep. HAHAHA.

So turns out, I'm sickie. DX The works can, FLU, FEVER, COUGH. Boooooooo. Staying home tomorrow, YEY. Just so happens, I haven't finished econs homework, coincidentally due tomorrow. HAHAHA. A certain seowgao wants to dapao porridge for me tomorrow. I SAY NO![/RusselPeters style] He should stop being so sweet, I'm seriously doubting the humanity in him. Yes, I've said it. Speculation of Jasper being an alien from Planet Too-Nice has the right to surface! HAHAHA. ILU BOO. <3

xoxo
Bex

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Friday, January 9, 2009

Open House

First thing I did today was to WAKE UP LATE. So it's kinda my fault that Jasper woke up late. DX I would've called him at 7, had I woken up on time. But somehow I switched off my alarm, disconcertedly stuffed my phone under my pillow (pig) and went back to sleep, waking only at 7.50 in PANIC. AND I couldn't find my dance hoodie to bring! DISASTER. I realised it was in school luh, eventually. Then when Ellen and I had reached school and I went to my locker to get it, I FORGOT MY LOCKER COMBINATION! Multiples of seven, I do remember. The combi turned out to be this unlikely sounding number, though my fingers turned it with practiced ease; I just started at 21 and let them do their thing. HAHAHA.

Then Max and I had to run out to buy sweets for people (turns out our dancers were the ones eating) and bubbletea, otars and this multi three pin plug for William's laptop for the presentation. I tell you, WILLIAM OWES ME AN OTAR. He ate 3 when I only had 1! BOOOOO IDIOT. I also met Haniel through out the day. XD

Conclusively, today's Open House was a bit of a flop. No, the planning was almost perfect, it was the bloody TURN OUT! Out of one massive chartered bus, an average of 5 people were onnit! And though the whole hall was set up for this presentation for like many visitors, it was pretty much a joke. DX The performances were rad though, and I basically learnt the steps. YEY now I won't be far behind. XD

Then after that, went to meet darling to buy headphones and for dinner. Silly boy was late, but I didn't tell him I was coming so it's my fault. XD Then we went to get the headsets, wandered around for a bit, and took the long bus to Kovan to eat. We had like udon, char soba, salmon sashimi, chawanmushi, kakiage, miso soup, fried tofu and 4 yam moshi for dessert. NOMNOMNOM it was so yummy. XD <3 Then he sent me home. I know I can't see him as often when school starts (DUH) and I'll miss him. DX I hope to get by, we can still talk to each other.

I love you darling, and I hope we'll still be able to see each other a little more than once a month. HAHAHA. <3

xoxo
Bex

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Thursday, January 8, 2009

TODAY

I HAVE A BLOODY ULCER UNDER MY UPPER LIP. DX

Today I woke up at like 9.50 cause of a bad dream. DX I've had that a few times already, and it still sucks EVERYTIME. I called McDelivery on impulse for breakfast. Hahaha. Kinda expensive, but filling. XD I had to anyways, cause I was gna eat a late lunch. So I called at 9.55, they had my details and everything, that totally made me laugh. Hahahahaha. Then they said they'd come around 10.25, so I was like slopping around. Suddenly at 10.05, the doorbell freaking rang! Gave me a fright luh! So I ran all over the place for money and charged downstairs. Talk about efficiency. XD

So we had like dance committee meeting today as usual. Not really considered a meeting luh, cause Maxine and I were out most of the time We had to go to Hougang Mall to print pictures for the boards. Only when we reached then we realised William didn't give us the musical pix. DX So tomorrow we're going early to stick pictures, around 8 or so, and to help with the makeup. Hahaha. The shou xiu in the dance damn nice luh. The music also. I'm so happy we're doing a dance to the same music on Chinese New Year. The music motivates me. XD

Then after that, went to meet my darling. We ate the meesua and the crispy chicken outside Hougang Mall. We went to this playground to eat. I swear, we have this affinity with playgrounds. XD Around 5, we went to look for mic-headphones at Harvey Norman for darling to talk to me on msn when I start school and we can't see each other often. In the end, we agreed to go back tomorrow for dinner at Sakae and to get the same set each. I tell you uh, this week's like our week, saw him Sunday, Tuesday, yesterday, today, and seeing him tomorrow. Cause going back to school already muh. Hahahaha. I think he must be pretty broke. DX Make him go out so much, and he keeps paying for me. DARLING, STOP BEING SUCH A GENTLEMAN! Tomorrow eating Sakae somemore, so after much pestering, he agreed to go dutch. YEY! My poor darling's been sick for two days now. And he had a bad headache today and everything, but he still went to school. Cnt kiss me cause of germs, but I understand, I wouldn't wna either! HAHAHAHA. Take care bby! <3

So about yesterday, it was our first month anniversary! I went to St Gabs and darling cooked lunch for us again. YUMMY YUMMY NOMNOMNOM. XD Then we went to his place, and I hung out with Venus in the living room watching telly, whilst darling went to rest. I do hope he gets better soon!

Tomorrow Open House. BAAAAAAH. So I'll being doing my homework in the spare time we're sitting there. XD BAI ALL.

I love you bby, if you're feeling lousy just give me a call, and I'll make it all better. <3

xoxo
Bex

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Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Situations are Inspirations

While You Wait

Drifting somewhere between
Fear and anxiety
They say it's not
A real emotion
Cause they can't put it into words

The fact that it's not pinpointed
Makes it strangely unsettling
You don't think about it
You don't want to name it
You don't want to unveil it.

It's almost subtle,
But you know it's there
Stagnant and stoic,
Hovering, not growing
Occupying, not going

Not acknowledged or denied,
Only dealt with when it's over
When relief is proof
Of it's existence,
Of it's significance

xoxo
Bex

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Saturday, January 3, 2009

Kim's everyone's reality check. XD

Just thought up of that today, and oh how true it is. Whenever I visit her blog, I receive some form of enlightenment or an epiphany. HAHAHA.

So today was like Fort Canning, blawblawblaw. I went with my fam to find new curtains! THEY'RE COOOOOOOOOL. Oh and Haniel and I went to uhm, buy stuff. HAHAHA. Thanks for going through that with me, Hanny, ILU. I tell you, we have many memorable moments, but that's 2009's first most memorable moment. XD Not to mention the only one, at least FOR NOW. HAHA. Oh and Yuen and I went to buy some things too. XD I swear, that girl's a mine of information. I LOVE HER. <3 EVERYTHING'S BORING. I'm seeing my darling tonight. <3 His school starts on monday, I say I wna buy a pencil case for him. YAY or NAY? XDDDD He objects, for one. HAHAHAHAHA.

xoxo
Bex

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Thursday, January 1, 2009

Remember.

So I'm gna remember 2008 in my own way, because I realised it was one of the most significant years of my life. Where I learnt so much, and these are the few best friends that have been there for me.

Remember.

Haniel. <3 Fanks oo, for the special mention! See, you get one too! This dude is my sister, and I'll never be ashamed of him, EVER. If ya'll fuck with him, I'll go all kinds of snobby-bitch-with-violent-tendencies on you. XD At least, I will on the inside. HAHA GAWD. We've shared so many nonsensical moments, epihanies, awesome secrets and awesome times together. And you totally let me insult/bully/embarrass/own you all the time and let me get away with it, especially winning arguments, oh I love that. XD You've been there for me through all those hard times, and it means the world to me cause you've always known what to say, and when not to be biased. Though the truth hurts, your neutral advice about my problems showed me what a true friend is, not just someone who tries to save their friend's feelings by sugarcoating shit. Finally, remember how I used to say "I dno," when you asked whether we'd still be friends 10 years from now? Well, right now, I can confidently say that you WILL be there at my wedding, closer than ever, cause I'm that extension of your mind that's obviously missing most times. XDDDDD I love you babe, stay flamboyantly gorgeous cause that's the Haniel I'll always love. The new "Operation Nice Guy" sounds good too. XD

Fonteyn. As predicted, we don't talk to each other as much. But we never drifted. During the rare times when we get to really TALK, we just fall back into place as if we had never stopped being in the same class. This is what the perfect friendship is, where you move past drifting and are able to live your own separate lives, but still remain connected as strong as before. Plus, you're the only person I can talk to about band stuff who actually understands man! XDDD We've had big dreams, big talk, and big hair moments (think FROlove <3). We've been there for each other through every hard phase, and whatever "it"s that bug either one of us, we both know what it's like. You're the first person to know and understand me through and through, and I hope you feel the same way about me. We share an irreplacable bond, and I have a really good feeling it'll stay that way for an awesomely looooooooong time. I love you, dude, always have, always will. <3 Oh and btw, every present you've gotten for me is serious awesome effort. Prepare to be dazzled next year on your birthday. HAHAHAHAHA.

Joshua. Though we don't go so deep cause we don't go all serious on each other, you're still this really important friend to me. HAHA. I don't really know why, but it's one of those unexplainable mysteries in life. We just clicked the moment we met, and we talk practically every night. You're really sweet, and you treat all your friends right. I've come to know that you're this really psycho guy who gives a serious fuck about all his friends. You're caring, sweet, forgiving, a little too sensitive, but you'll really go out of your way to do something for your friends, even those who hurt you. I remember that when you're feeling seriously emo, you always go like, "Who'll care if I die tomorrow?" Well, you better remember that I'll be the first in the "Cry-your-eyes-out-for-Joshua-cause-you-cared-about-him" line. XDDD And I know that recently we haven't been talking much, but it's one of those things right. And I want you to know that you don't mean any less to me. I'll always be there, cause I know you always will. I'm nothing short of really lucky to have met you, and I love you, because you're one of those friends who remind me that not all the world's a big fat shit hole. XD

Jasper. The one whom I love like crazy now, and the one whom I'll still love like crazy in the future. I never knew a guy could be so devoted, until he'd come all the way to kovan to see me for a few hours, and forgo an entire night's sleep. You care about me a lot, and I really appreciate that. You're the most special guy I've ever come to know, because you love me in a way that's just so different from the rest. You make me want to do something really awesome for you, cause everyday with you seems like this amazing favour that Fate's doing for me. I know I'm so lucky, and I won't think of the day we'll be apart just yet, if that day even comes, because all I know is that right now, I'm here with you ever close by. And that's what counts. I love you Jasper, for being the most different and definitely most special person I've ever had as my plus one. <3

One-liners, cause I'm suddenly lazy. XD

BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU MEAN ANY LESS. <3

KIM. GAWD you keep my IQ going, I swear. XD NECESSITY! <3
XING. 6 YEARS! Freaking funny friend. FFF. HAHA. If we're in the same uni, I'll drop dead. DEF. A NECESSITY! <3
JAMES AND SAM. Ya'll fuelled my J1 one year. XD SHATTAP! NECESSITY! <3
1A05 '08. THE VERY COLOUR IN MY 2008 COLOURING BOOK. NECESSITY! <3
ALL MY BALLET FRIENDS. Good times, forever and everrrrr. <3 Make it through the Majors, ya'll freaking Romeo Tribal lot! NECESSITY! <3

Anyone else who I forgot, I'M SORRY. But I do love all my friends, so ya'll have nothing to worry about. XD If ya'll don't frequent my life, please understand. But I'll care for anyone through and through kay, so don't worry about that. XD <33333

MERRY NEW YEAR EVERYONE. <3

xoxo
Bex

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FIRST.

Now before I start this post, my friends need to know I'm not being unfair. XD It's just that these good things go to the one whom I love. <3

The first person I talk to is you.
The first person I hear is you.
The first person I think of is you.
The first person I miss is you.
The first person I cherish is you.
The first person I laugh with is you.
The first person I **** ** ********* to is you.

And last but not least,
The first person I'll say "I love you" to is you.

I love you, my darling. <3

xoxo
Bex

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HAPPY NEW YEAR.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.

MOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

xoxo
Bex

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