Sunday, March 30, 2008
YESTERDAY WAS SO BUSY.
Firstly, had hiphop, then "vocal training", which was like doing nothing. Then ballet, again, not that big, except we recovered barre and my exercises suck. Whatever. Meeh. Cancelled piano cause of AC, which was like long and draggy, and I left 5 minutes before the ending. Hahahaha wtf. SIS WAS THE EMCEE! She was great, cept she spoke too fast la. Hahahaha.Then after that, BBQ! We ate like so many hotdogs and chicken wings, and we went to go buy HAM (<33333333) and Caramel Corn. Saw Ezra for the first time in a week, we all missed him. XD We played water balloons later la, I got the impulse to throw one at Haniel, so I did, AND IT BURST ON HIS HEAD. HAHAHAHAHA. Best you know. But then later Jo and Ezra ganged up and threw both their balloons at me. DX It was so fun, and Haniel, Xing and Jo fell into the pool. HAHAHA. Left at 11 though. Bah. So early.
Learnt about something unpleasant. I'd just think about it later. Tsk.
xoxo
Bex
Friday, March 28, 2008
Today, I made someone cry.
Obviously I didn't do it with the intention of making her cry.Eudora.
So I just told her the truth, and I was honest to say what everyone else was hiding, and I wasn't bitchy or mean about it. It was just a question, "Why are you here?", and the next thing I know, she's bawling her head off. Literally. She was crying with her friends, and she threw her head back! I thought she was laughing.
So anyways, Mr Ho talked to us, and Xing tried to be nice to her in Lit Lecture, but apparently Eudora ignored her. I don't think that's the way to be when you want to have friends and when you get snubbed, you complain to the teacher. I don't think it's nice too, that you trail and attach yourself to random people without talking to or befriending them, or eve attempting to make yourself liked. It's too, stupid. Her behavior is just so... OFF, not to mention weird. And she doesn't correct that. I think I'd realise that I'm doing something wrong if this is happening to me. Tsk.
On to better things, musical rehearsal was a laugh today. HAHAHA. We were two Su Annes, Joyce and I. XD And Lionel was being so funny, being the mahjong kaki and the mum. HAHAHA. It was seriously funny, and fun too. First time, cause Chris and almost all the other teachers were away at a production meeting. Then left at 5.55 to go to ballet from 6-8. Was damn tired in the beginning, but got better towards the end. Then did stretch/contorting for like more than 30 minutes, THE PAIN! But it was all awesome. XD I hope I'll get used to this extra lesson. ARGH! Tomorrow got dance, vocal training, ballet, Awards Ceremony, and a party! OMG. I'm getting the COLOURS award and Sustained Gold, btw. XD The party's for Ezra's birthday and his leaving. DX TO LONDON. FOR TWO YEARS. BOOHOO. We'll miss you dude, so muchhh.
AND BODY SHOP HAS LIKe AN UP TO 70% SALE ON EVERYTHING. I wna go on Sunday, I'll try. But I won't tell you which one! HAHAHAHA. XD
Dad's coming home, and we're gna pick him at the airport later, where I'm gna eat a late dinner/supper! Yaaaay. So I'm gna bathe now. XD TAAS. <333333
xoxo
Bex
Thursday, March 27, 2008
FORGOT SOMETHING
OKAY EMBARRASSING.TODAY, I THOUGHT KIMBERLY WAS IN THE GOOD NEWS CAFE QUEUE.
SO I WENT UP TO HER.
WENT "HOOHAH"
AND POKED HER IN THE RIBS.
IT. WAS. NOT. HER.
OMGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was like shit..., SORRY! -runs-
ARGH!!!!!
xoxo
Bex
RAN
We ran like 4 km yesterday for PE! Cuihua is the best running partner ever. XD I actually RAN for the first time in my life. XD Well not really, but I've always been jogging, so this was awesome. XD And the pe teacher kept going "CHIJ, CUIHUA, DON'T WALK!" HAHAHA. So we'd RUN 200m and walk the rest. HAHAHA. Quite fun laaa.But now knees and ankle hurts. DX Old woman...
I managed to memorise most of Su Anne's lines today. XD Happy. And did all my hmwk in school. Cept for Econs, but I dno how to do! Dieeee la tomorrow. MEEP.
I don't go on myspace much now. Feel so bad towards Christy and Sarah. Boo.
So tiiiiired. Smorgasboard of emotions and feelings. Tiredness but I'm not sleepy, aching, lethargic and yet strangly static body. See what I mean? I need a break. WHICH I'M NOT GETTING. And extra lessons for Ballet starts tomorrow immediately after musical. 6-8pm, and I'm leaving school at 5.55. HAHA. Haniel asked if I'm gna suffer from burn-out soon. XD HOPEFULLY NOT! Wait til J2 then start to even think about burning out. HAHAHA.
xoxo
Bex
PS: Fon, it's great that I understand you, that's what I try to do everyday. And it's even better than you understand me. You're prolly the only one in the world. <333 Iloveyou.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Mirror.
I caught my reflection in the mirror when I was walking out.Dark cirles and eyebags.
I'm so tired. Of everything.
I can't go on like this.
I type "haha", but I'm not laughing.
Sum41.
Says all.Confusion's all I see.
Frustation, surrounds me.
I'm not thinking straight nowadays right now. Neither are my emotions. Tsk. It sucks. I hope it's over soon.
xoxo
Bex
PS. I love too you, Fon.
Monday, March 24, 2008
It's not bad after all.
I made IMMENSE progress on CuteGuy1 today. XDAND I MEAN IMMENSE.
I now know a lot.
And Alex and I really talked for the first time in a while.
She told me everything.
I empathised. XD
I'm glad she did.
And I love her. <333
Fon said we could have Ezra's celebration for EVERYTHING on the day her sister has her own shit cause they booked a function room and a BBQ pit! And we could chill afterwards. ALL OF US! It's so fantastic. I'm happy.
There's more I think, but I forget.
xoxo
Bex
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Good day.
Fon and Xing talked. They'll be alright.The Kids Are
And I haven't lost you at all. <3
xoxo
Bex
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
2.4!!!
2.4 timing = 15:48TRAIN!!!!!!!!
That's why I'm trying to make arrangements to train with Fonteyn. It's more comforting when you don't have to suffer alone. XD
New Balance came to school today, staying for a while, 40% discount! Poor Xing, just bought NB shoes. HAHA. So today was a pretty easy day, especially since PW and Chinese were in the same classroom and we didn't have to move. HAHAHA. Shiok. Haniel helped me buy spaghetti up during lunch today. <3 Thankschoo.
Then after Math lecture (I was being very optimistic about the remaining time AGAIN) was musical, and we watched this very funny film about two skits or something like that. I BORROWED THE DVD FROM CHRIS!! So totally gna watch it! XD Then Yuen AND Joyce didn't come, so the people were like poking fun at me to play two roles at the same time! HAHAHA. And for the prison scene, Chris said that I WAS DISCOVERING THE CHARACTER FASTER THAN HE EXPECTED!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaay I'm so happy. I love to be complimented, cause it makes me feel happier with myself, and know that it's okay to make mistakes if I make up for it. It's a personal thing. Heh heh.
Then after musical we stayed for vocal training. Dno what kinda vocal training it was, we focused on the classroom scene more than anything. It was funny though. HAHA. You see right, Amanda couldn't get this note right in the classroom scene song, but we got it in the end! But the thing is, almost everyone else got influenced and started singing THAT note! HAHAHAHAAHAHA. Oh and Kenneth has two different kinds of stupid laughter. XDDD And while walking out, Patson and Lionel told me some DragonSlayer thing that was obscenely GROSS. Nearly fainted. XD
So I have little homework, and I'm gna watch Pride & Prejudice. XD Good day, good day. Even though I have a GP essay test tomorrow, I'm feeling okay. XD Yaaaaaaay, Mr Darcy, here I come!!! <3333333333333333
xoxo
Bex
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Too hard.
I didn't think it'll be so hard. But that's where I was the most unassuming, I guess. But now, I'm just finding it SO hard to maintain this. What we have, this, has been endangered many times, I admit. Many times have I tried to control myself. It'll pass, I'd tell myself. But now, our bond is just so thin, like a spiderweb, and that coarse hand of tension has taken one too many a swipe at it. I never want to lose you, and even though you get lost sometimes, cause that's just you, I always search for you, and I've always been able to find you. But if you keep on getting yourself lost, I just may not find you one day.I don't want to lose you. Without you, I have no one who knows you as much as me here for me. And I don't want to be alone like that. I'm scared, and it sucks so much. I love you so much, it's more than I'll admit. And it hurts, too. But I don't think I can stand the hurt any longer.
Cause, how can I love you, when you don't let me?
Monday, March 17, 2008
Remember a while ago...
When I said I loved my life? Well, that was remission. NOW IT'S RELAPSE. DAMNIT. I HATE MY LIFE.First of all, Ezra's leaving. Boohoo. Known that for quite a while, so it cannot be immediately responsible, but I'm getting ahead of myself. And Damien's leaving too, even though it's just for five weeks, really short compared to Ezzie's 2 years, it's still not the same.
Secondly, certain people are just really starting to get on my nerves. It's that period when I notice the flaws outweigh the awesome. It's actually their fault. Like, they can control themselves with regard to the people around them, and be aware of how those people feel. SPARE ME THE AGONY OF HATING WHAT YOU'RE DOING EVERYDAY FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.
And finally, I'm overweight, classified by that screwed up machine in school. I AM 155, NOT 152. AND I AM DEFINITELY LIGHTER THAN 55 KG. It's screwed up, seriously. I AM NOT in denial, I am stating facts. And I'm NOT "being a girl". Although I pride myself on my gender, sometimes society makes it out to be an insult. But whatever. The point is, I'M NOT FAT. Isn't TAF for like, FAT people?? And according to Mr Teng, the MOE considers muscle weight as a factor for TAF. THIS IS SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP, I SWEAR. Especially since excessive running, which is what they'll implement, will just bulk up your muscle mass. I'll just keep maintaining my weight, or even getting heavier, and they'll can't say anything just cause they don't wna admit they're wrong. I'm not being self-righteous here, or complaining, or, heaven forbid, WHINING. I DON'T WHINE. It's just, plain and simple, stupid.
I'm so pissed off. I just. Don't give a shit anymore.
Bex
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
MONSTER
ALERT. I LOOK LIKE A FAT FISHBALL MONSTER WHEN I'M CHEERING. Stupid Yi Ci took a picture of me during that Woooo Poing Poing Poing game during orientation. Said he was camping for this kinda expression. OMG LAAAAAAAAAAA GROSS.So the last two days was orientation, RYAN WAS OUR OGL AGAIN!! Actually, he wasn't our OGL, but he made this guy change. HAHAHAHA. <3333333 He's awesome like that, and we love him. XD Julius was our other OGL, awesome dude. HAHA. So it was pretty fun, and they gave us chocolate and mentos at the end of it, just like Ryan always does. <333 They're amazing people.
Then today had musical rehearsals, followed by hiphop. Damn hard la the dance today, such a headache trying to learn it. And just like that, my whole day was gone. Meeh. Stupid. And to make things worse, don't have glue to make slime to slime Ezra during the BBQ tomorrow. AND Sam and JunHong and Jan can't make it. AND I CANNOT ORDER MY LOWRIDERS. YOU KNOW HOW FUCKING SAD THIS MAKES ME??? NO WHERE SHIPS TO SINGAPORE AND I JUST WNA CRY. BAWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!! STUPID. Now I gotta go a long winded way to get it shipped to Dad's office overseas. ARGH. STUPID SINGAPORE. FIRST THE COCK UP WITH THE F1 TICKETTING, THEN MAS SELAMAT, NOW THIS. IT IS RUINING MY LIFE, I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!! ARGH.
Tomorrow better be a fan-fucking-tastic day.
xoPissypissyxo
Bex
Saturday, March 8, 2008
MUSICAL CAMP
Started yesterday, ended today. It was really fun. XDDDDAfter school let out, early, I might add, cause A Level results were gna be released. I went home to get my stuff and came back, then went with Haniel to his house to get stuff he forgot. Before that, we dumped our stuff in Mr Goh's office for safe keeping together with Kenneth, and THIS IS FUNNY LISTEN. Kenneth was all "Don't hurt my precious Fiona." and he put Fiona on the floor. Then I put my sleeping bags near Mr Goh's bike, and he was all "Don't hurt my precious bike." AND I MADE THE FRONT WHEEL GO PENGEH. HAHAHAHA. XD Then Kenneth asked what his bike was named, and Mr Goh was like "Its name is SCOTT." And Haniel was all, MR GOH RIDES SCOTT EVERYDAY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTFBBQROTFLMFAO.
So like, camp started off with musical rehearsals as per normal, then after that, we went to the gallery to write facets of our characters cause we had some spare time and no one wanted to shower. XD I got to stretch! Hooray! Then WE HAD PIZZA FOR DINNER. OH YEAH. XDDDDD Ate like four slices. OMG PHAT.
Then after dinner, we all moved our stuff from Mr Goh's office to the hall, and we were like fooling around for a bit, doing really stupid and random stuff and all that. Then Mr Tham, Ms Chew's friend, Choirmaster, came for vocal coaching. He's good. XD And I'm a soprano! Omg la... I had NO idea. I thought my voice was pretty low, so I argued that point, and he asked me to sing, AND EVERYONE STOPPED SINGING TO LISTEN. Gave me a fright la. My voice was like the only one in the silent hall. WTF. So we were like singing and dancing, cause during rehearsals before, Mr Dan came down to choreograph a really simple routine for us to do to the Council Song. Then time passed really fast, and it was 9 before we knew it.
So we went to shower, and Yuen, Mai and I rushed for the showers. XD And OMG THE WATER WAS FREEZING. We were all freaking out and laughing like mad under the spray. HAHAHA. And to make things worse, the pressure was PATHETIC. HAHAHAHA. It was what was so funny most of the time. XD
Then after, we went to the CCA Room 5 to watch a few musical clips. AMAZING. The Phantom Of The Opera and Cats scenes were my favorite. "Suddenly Seymour" from The Little Shop Of Horrors was actually pretty funny cause of the female lead vocals. HAHA. But Seymour was awesome, so were the three black women singing back up. Amazinggggggg. AND OMGOMGOMGOMG. I dno what clip it was, but HUGH JACKMAN WAS SINGING. AND HE WAS AMAZING!!!!! I love him. <333333333333
So we ate supper after all that, and told like ghost stories. Had a kick ass time! Then went to sleep, and apparently I went to sleep with my headphones on, cause when I woke up around 7, I had to pull it off before going back to sleep. Omg la... How come I didn't wake up for the pain!!! And Yuen said I was sleeping with my arms crossed over my chest CORPSE STYLE. HAHAHAHA. So weird. Then we did PILATES after we packed up, and it was pretty tiring. HAHA. Poor Patson's very stiff. Then went for breakfast, and dance practice. Some drama happened but whatever. It's over. Then rehearsals, I went through it in a really emo kinda mood. Couldn't help it cause of what happened earlier. Bah. Then I went off with Joanna to buy EIGHTEEN packets of chicken rice for lunch, and to get away for a bit. We were tired so we got like Kopi-O ice for me and Kopi-C ice for Jo. HAHA. THEN WE GOT DAMN HIGH FROM THE CAFFIENE. XD So funny la. We were like cheap thrilling all the way. HAHA.
So we returned to school, tried to learn the new hip hop steps, essentially failed, and had lunch. Ms Chew said NO CHILLI, BUT KENNETH HAD TO PUT CHILLI. HAHAHAHAHA. Baba ma! As in ALI. XDDDDDDDDDDDD And then he kept us laughing our asses off with brilliant impersonations. That dude's awesome. XD Then had some stressy rehearsals before singing like mad at the last bit, and we broke camp.
It's been really fun for me, and I hope we can do something like this again soon. GOT TO SHOWER AND SLEEP. TIRED OFF MY ASS. <3333333333333333333
xoxo
Bex
Thursday, March 6, 2008
It's stupid.
But I'm gna say it anyways, even if ya'll call me slow. I think Eminem had a really a whole lot of anger and sadness in him. I don't really listen to his songs, so I suddenly went on like a rampage these few days, and his lyrics really got to me. He's amazing. Marshall for life. <33333Today I had brekkie with Jan, Jun Hong and Sam, so I was actually happy in the morning for a while. WOW. But my mood went down by the time Econs lecture was over. I dno why, but like I've been sorta in a bad mood for like this whole week. Hopefully it's just a phase, cause I'm being really rude and painful now and I don't like it, but I can't help it. Not to mention it's a real test for my friends, especially Haniel. All I can say is that, they're hanging in there. I love ya'll. <333
And after school had PW make up lesson, and we watched a few funny ads. XD The lesson was only for 30 minutes, so I was pretty happy. XD Random idea generators apparently involve toothbrushes. HAHA. XD Okay nevermind. Then had to meet Ms Yeo to talk about the publicity thingys. Went pretty well, except we need to know when the costumes will be ready for our publicity stunts and some of it still needs to be confirmed, especially the messages and the mug shots of the actos. XDD So I ran after Fon outside school and we went to hers, well, next to it. XD RM!!! But before I get ahead of myself, Haniel and Ting were on the bus with us and we spent the whole journey making stupid jokes. HAHAHA. XD So at RM, I ate fries and apple pie, Fon got nuggets and ice-cream. OMG spent all that money. And I'll get FAAAAAAAT. TSK.
OMG AND WONDERFUL NEWS. I ASKED THIS AMAZING PERSON ON 8NOTES FOR THE SHEET MUSIC FOR FORGIVEN BY WITHIN TEMPTATION AND I GOT IT!!!!!!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGG SO HAPPY. It sounds gorgeous too! I love that person, whoever he/she is. XDDDD <3333333333333333333333
So apparently tomorrow I'm wearing the new uniform skirt with the college tee cause I need to pei Xing who ran out of SJC uniform. Meep. Okay, we'll see how it goes. XD I can't exactly look too much like an idiot right? AND TOMORROW'S MUSICAL CAMP. Fon's lending me her hoodie. Yaaaaaay. <333333333333333
I'm gna go try to pack now or something. XD And sort out the publicity stuff if I can. XD AND SEE IF THERE'S HOMEWORK TO DO. OMG. HOMEWORK FIRST PRIORITY. BYEEEE!!!
xoxo
Bex
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
OMG I REALISED.
That I have a whole playlist solely consisting of depressing songs. OMG. I'm so... "sadistic". It's like, if I'm sad or anything, and I listen to THAT, I'll prolly cry like mad. O.oSo today, my mood was kinda blah. I was like irritated at several things la, but it's just cause of PMS or whatever. XD I'm not a bitch! Nothing happened.
Then after school had DANCE. OMG FELT SO GOOD. Cause I've been busy with musical, cannot go dance, so when I could dance today, it was so great. I felt tired but at the same time, it's as if everything in my life doesn't matter anymore when I dance. It's just the dance, steps, and me. It's just... I dno! So good...
I'm like importing a million CDs now. CHRIST. It took so long to find the album art too. Bloody itunes can't do it for me. Bah, s'all. NIGHT! <333
xoxo
Bex
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Recently.
People have been talking to me on msn. I mean like, they start the conversation. It's usually the other way around. Makes me feel special, and appreciated. :) I hardly use :) so it's prolly a good thing. Like a quiet kinda smile. Why the hell am I attempting to explain my emoticons. HAHA. XDYAY mum brought up bubbletea. And I finished the last of the cherries today. DX Oh well. All good things must come to an end.
Nothing much to say about today, it was pretty blah. OH we paid for everything, finally. Uniform, lockers and all that. OMG and what's so screwed is that the PE shirt only comes in April cause it's a new kinda. WTF. DX And the uniform issue was all rah rah cause I had to go back to change my skirt cause Xing reported that 32 was damn big. It's not bad for me now la, cause I changed from 34 to 32. The guy's measuring is screwed. And I asked for 36 blouse and they gave me 38! ARGH. TSK. Gotta go change tomorrow again. I'm changing two with Xing, but I still gotta change the other one. Dno why she wants a big shirt. HAHA. Up to her la. More comfortable I guess, but I don't want so much excess, so unflattering. HAHAHA. XD
OMG do I look like some kinda Archangel? Cause I got like two cries of help this week. "Bex ): Save me." and "Bex ): Help me." HAHA I'm flattered. I love it cause it makes me feel wanted. I'm insecure but I don't show it. XD Omg this blog post is so emo. HAHA. Okay I'm neglecting the people who talked to me on msn. SO BAD. HAHA so I gotta go. Byeeee. <3333333333
xoxo
Bex
Monday, March 3, 2008
MUSCLES HURT LIKE MAD.
Cause I went to the gym on Saturday. Itchy "fingers", cause Saturday is my EXERTION DAY, with dance in the morning, then ballet, and piano, and I still went to do like weights and pull ups. REGRET. But my muscles are almost of Dwayne's proportions. I THINK. XD But my bloody fats. STUPID MAS SELAMAT LA. THANKS TO HIM, I CAN'T RUN EARLY IN THE MORNING CAUSE MY DAD'S PARANOID. DX So I can't get rid of fats. BLOODY TOOTTOOTTOOT.So on Saturday was Dwayne's Danceworks, Cat 3. He didn't get through, but I thought he was brill. The whole lot came to support him. HAHA. XD We're awesome like that yo.
And today I came up with the Theory on Men. Remember that Theory on Women, where Women = Time + Money and all that crap? WELL LOOK AT THIS.
MEN = CHICKS, CASH, CREDITCADS, CARS, CONDOS, CONDOMNS.
So, MEN = 6 Cs.
Therefore, MEN = C + C + C + C + C + C...
C + C + C + C + C + C... = REPITITION
As we all know, REPITITION = STUPIDITY.
STUPIDITY = NOUN OF STUPID.
Therefore, MEN = STUPID.
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Simply brilliant, innit? XD Html took a while too. HAHAHA. XD Bye all. <33333333333
xoxo
Bex
PS, No offence to guys, but ya'll DID do that Theory on Women thing. HAHAHA.