Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Oh, and...
Oh, and to follow up to somewhere.I would slap you if I didn't have to pretend I didn't know.
I would slap you so damn hard I'll make you cry.
Pre April Fool's
Idea for tomorrow, I feel so naughty. XDI'll update ya'll soon.
xoxo
Bex
Monday, March 30, 2009
Exams man.
Laziness?Complacency?
No sense of urgency?
MAN. Scoldings still don't wake me up. Wonder what will.
Maybe I should do A Bell Jar and get ECT. HAHAHA.
xoxo
Bex
Thursday, March 26, 2009
A bird got killed in math!
OMG. Something freaky happened today.Ann Na picked up this bird which couldn't fly like this morning. Then during math, around 1pm, the same bird (according to Haniel) flew into our classroom, flew into the fan, got whacked across the room in a spray of blood and guts and landed on top of the electric circuit box. It was freaking scary okay. And then when we walked out of the door, you could see its feet sticking out over the box. MAN.
I slept at 8pm yesterday. Dead ass tired. Hahahahahaha.
Disappointed too, this week, and a little worried. Okay scratch that, very worried. Sad, and sometimes feel like jumping into an icy cold pool for no reason. I'm guessing this is significant. I don't want to do anything, I'm tired. And I'm tired, as a whole. Of everything. Everything. Occasionally I feel like crying, but I don't suppose it's that big a deal.
xoxo
Bex
Monday, March 23, 2009
When You're Lost
For you.When you're lost
Tossing tiles
Shooting blind goals
In urban darkness
Wide limpid pupils
Anti-albino
When you're lost
Black pools
Not-so-quicksand
Post-mortem autobiography
A minute after midnight
Fifty-nine before one
WhenYou'reLost
I'll be your Tinkerbell.
<3
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Old people.
MAN. Memorable quote from Jade."And then Hetfield starts singing, like he's happy. It just doesn't work.
3 minutes of anger, 4 minutes of joy, wtf? If you want to be happy, do it all the way mann!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Okay I just had to write that down before I started. XD So today was like a Sampling lecture for 2 hours. I felt like we achieved nothing man. Then went to Toa Payoh, where some LOSER was still sleeping! XD Had to wait and yell a little, then eventually I got let in. XD Then went to Far East Plaza to look for Cotton On to get my dance tights, but then they didn't have it there. So much for reliability. XD Then WALKED to Plaza Sing, and got tights and an umbrella. O.o SOMEONE accuses me of spending too much. BUT I NEED A NICE BLACK BROLLY! GOD I sound just like Rebecca from Shopaholic. O.o Then walked around in Carrefour for a bit. I had a good time today. Nice second date. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Okay so with the day's events out of the way, I can do some reflection. XD
I saw like four old people on the bus today. And I didn't know if they were together but yeah. These two old women, wore make up and drew their eyebrows. One was wearing a brown long sleeved and trouser set, the kinda cheap print type. And the other was wearing a plaid sleeveless blouse with grey frill-fringed tights. Naturally, they had dyed hair. Two old men sat behind them. One looked tired and squinty, blinking more often than he had to, and he had a bald pate with liver spots scattered in various random areas. The other looked younger than I knew he was, refined in a way. He had a thin head of white hair, astonishingly young looking large eyes, glasses and a walking stick. He sat straight, whilst his companion sat slumped, spilling out into the aisle. Makes me think about the various remaining degrees of concern old people have left about life.
And when I was walking past Shaw Plaza, I saw an old man peering into KFC through their glass walls, dangling a plastic bag in his hand, in it, MacDonald Fries. Maybe not all of us grow to hate junk food when we grow up.
Wish I had a camera with me, they would've been meaningful pictures.
xoxo
Bex
Friday, March 13, 2009
Suddenly.
Suddenly.There's nothing more I want in the world right now, to see you very badly hurt.
The way you hurt me.
It's been wild.
Past few days have been, well, CT-ful.But I've seen someone for every frickking day of the week already. Hahahaha, but it's a good thing, and I'm happy. XD Just cause I know you'll ask, "Is that a good thing or a bad thing?" XDDDD
I met Jo on wednesday in school to have lunch! Missed her. XD We talked good. Then she passed us her lit notes and her P&P spare text, cause I lost mine. O.o Then basically, I lost my P&P books on bus 153 for like a grand total of four hours. HAHAHAHA. I was freaking out! Called all the ex-seniors and managed to secure two texts, then after, I didn't need them anymore. XD Haniel, being a darling, got them back for me at Hougang Interchange. <3
Today I went for dinner at Marutama with Fon. We drooled over these super yummy looking pastries at a bloody atas bakery, stuffed ourselves with ramen, and freaked out over the boiled sweets at the basement. I swear, they're absolutely gorgeous. So we totally promised to come back here before June hols. And I know how it is about us making resolutions, promising we'll fulfill them then never do, but WE WILL THIS TIME, REALLYREALLYREALLY! We're gna come back before June when we've saved up a few hundred dollars at least to eat ShabuShabu, get sweets and doughnuts and go shopping. XD And I wna come back in July. Heeheehee, for a special secret. XD It was so long since we got to spend time together. Everytime we have outings like these, I feel like we never left SJC. <3
March hols next week! Think I can sleep in for all of one day. O.o Oh thrills. Got to find a few days for jamming, and there's dance camp and hopefully a 1A5 gathering. Ohman, no time at all. I feel so short-tempered, intolerant, irritated, stressed out, harried, tired, all of those things. Maybe that's why JC life is only for 2 years, cause they don't wna wear you out anymore than you can take. I can't wait for this period of my life to end, I hate feeling like this.
I didn't know how just much I missed you until I did. I actually felt comfortable and even kinda peaceful, for the first time this year, where it's been one crazy day after the other, just like old times. I don't know how to put down whatever I'm thinking in words, but I don't want this filament to burn out, or even dim to a feeble glow.
xoxo
Bex
Monday, March 9, 2009
CT
Common test update:Econs
H1 Math
Geog
Lit
BALLET SUSHI TEH PICTURES!
On hindisight, all too weird/unglam to put on my blog. XD
GIRLS, IF YOU WANT THEM, MAKE ME EMAIL THEM TO YOU!
xoxo
Bex
Friday, March 6, 2009
I PASSED CHINESE!
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
MAI, VANESSA AND KENNETH ALL GOT ABOVE 80 FOR A LEVELS! CONGRATS GUYS, YOU MAKE ME PROUD! <3
So if that's the fate for musical people, I'm damn happy. XD
OH. The water pipe burst yesterday in school, so there was no water supply. Including flushes and water coolers. So PUB sent in a water tank on request, and 4 portaloos, all within the same day. 2 more arrived today. We had such fun shaking the damn thing when Paula was in there. HILARIOUS. XDDD Then I was laughing at two guys who malued themselves by turning on the taps to the water tank, panicking and totally losing their cool when water gushed out. XD And they tried to walk away cooly, but I made sure they saw me behind them laughing away. XDDDDD
So after the collection of results, I went out for a bit, then went to Serangoon Garden's Sushi Teh for Zi Qi's surprise birthday party! Damn fun, haven't gone out with the ballet girls in like forever. We had a whole load of laughs, especially at our dear 90 pointer who, incidentally, is as bimbotic as a bimbo can get. O.o HAHAHA. So I have pictures, but I'm lazy to stick the memory stick into the computer, so too bad! XD Had heaps of fun, and some spiderman moments. You girls made my day. <3
xoxo
Bex
That's what you said to me, and look where that turned out.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Realization
I had a spark of brilliance in literature today. Think I'm finally TRYING HARD, and starting to see the light. I hope I can keep this up! And there was portaloo shaking today in school. XD FUN. I have a video to illustrate that. Hahahaha.I just realised something.
When you're single, not in a relationship, sure, you're alone and you don't have somebody to love/to love you.
But you have more time for your friends.
More time for yourself, especially when you're so busy.
You don't have extra committments and responsibilities.
Not to mention the worrying, the jealousy.
The unpleasantness when stuff goes wrong, cause indoubtedly, shit WILL happen.
AND you can flirt as much as you like. XD
All in all, I'm actually quite lucky. And I can confidently say this now.
I am happy.
Gosh, I feel so damn good. XD
xoxo
Bex
Monday, March 2, 2009
A moment of pain
I can't remember when exactly was it.But today, I looked up, and I felt this moment of pain.
The sinking feeling returned again.
However brief and occasional it visits me, I just wish it would go for good.
I got one mark less than my usual GRAZE OF A PASS for my FFOC lit essay. Then I dno why, I suddenly felt like crying. Guess the disappointment's all welling up in this crucial period now.
So I actually stayed back to study today. Got a bit done, how unproductive. I really got to kick start my ass, with less than a week to the overrated tests everyone's worried about. O.o
Cuihua really thought I grazed my knees. XDDD
Tomorrow's a torturous day. KILL ME.
Sometimes I just want you to come up to me and hug me. Despite how little we see each other. Hug me real tight, for all the fucked up reasons you already know and understand, so I don't need to tell you. I miss you.
xoxo
Bex